I’m feeling very emotional right now.
I can’t believe I got an A- in my o-chem class.
What a surprise!!
My first quarter of ochem started off terribly. In all honesty, this is the hardest class I’ve taken in my (short) college experience so far. If you’ve followed my blog posts, I’ve complained numerous times about its difficulty and how I thought about giving up. But I didn’t want to quit.
I thought I was gonna be the worst of my entire class but ironically midway through the quarter, close to 1/2 of the class dropped.
I’m glad that I never gave up on this class. I kept going to my professor’s office hour and everything. I did fairly well on midterms (B+) but “fail” on lab exams. Days before the final exam I knew that “A” range is gonna be a long shot. And after the tough final..I thought I might as well kiss it goodbye. But wow…my final grade came out to be A-….I was hoping for a B+ in my heart. Needless to say, I’m on cloud 99 right now. Grades are not everything in life, but as a full-time student, knowing that efforts do pay off feels good.
I have been following this drama “loosely”. I used to like SeonDeok a lot but gave up right around when Deokman became the princess. But just yesterday I watched some parts of the recent episodes. Omo…BiDamxSeonDeok couple is so endearing. *_* I TOTALLY ship them. Kim NamGil…where did this man come from? I am gonna cheat behind Jang Geun Seok’s back for him. heeheee…
Anyways, I spent a crapload of time searching for this drama’s OST online. The files are everywhere, but the quality is equally crappy. Some rar files are around 85mb (this is the 192kbps LQ ver.) and some are around 132mb (FAKE 320kbps converted right from the 192kbps). I seriously spent hours searching because I wanted to listen to IU’s “Windflower” in HQ. Alas…at around 2am midnight I found some links on mediafire. They’re the genuine 320kbps songs (my ears can’t fool me &I even checked with audio program). Here it is. I did not upload them and have no idea who that user is. But thank him/her anyways!
FINALly that big day is about to come: my ochem final is around the corner.
ok, yeah..uhm, i’m not exactly prepared. You see…I have plenty of time to study but somehow all the time is wasted away. But I’ll try my best. Besides, I have been studying, just not as much as I should be, I guess.
So plan for tomorrow: Leave house around 9. Hop on lightrail. Get on a bus. Go to McDonald’s for lunch. Bus again for school. Study for a bit. Take the final. Come home. Enjoy my winter break.
ALMOST THERE!
Fall quarter is coming to an end in two weeks. Amazing…
I have one lab exam and a final to worry about
still shooting for an A in o-chem, although it can be a long shot
Besides exams, I’m worried about my winter quarter schedule. Looks like I probably can’t get my ideal schedule since I am signing up much later than others. I just hope that I can take these two classes even if the scheduling isn’t so great.
one more month left in 2009….crazy….
this year flew by so fast.
I don’t even know anymore.
When I came back..I knew what I wanted. I knew I wanted to get there…
But now…
the fear of failure is pulling me back. I don’t see the goal anymore. It’s blurry and my footsteps are heavy. All the confidence on the bike ride I had telling myself “I will get there” seems like a dream that’s never going to come true.
I thought I knew for sure, but I don’t even know anymore. What will become of me in one year from now. 20 years from now? I’m afraid to step further away because I am not confident.
Why am I worrying? Because I can’t take the disappointment? The shame?
I don’t see myself in a future. I want to live as the 19-year-old me.
Here. Now. Forever.
